numb or alive

I sit numb, thoughts going through my mind cause that’s the only thing I can feel. Someday my pain will leave the existence of my body and leave just my bones lying there on nothing but shrubs of grass and dirt, just like how you did. I’m numb, I’m numb from feelings and emotions. Life is passing me and I don’t feel a thing. People are growing up and I can’t see a thing. I’m numb and you don’t even seem to care, but you tell me that we all hit dark spots in our lives, but I never expected it to feel like this… NUMB…. I’m numb because of what you did to me. I’m numb because you destroyed my heart, and you walked away like you just won in a game of black jack…. I’m numb and I don’t know where I am. My imagination is my escape, and even then I don’t know where I stand, it’s dark, and moist… I feel something.. I feel something!!! I feel something warm on my shoulder. My imagination starts to go wild, thinking this might be it! What if it’s you? What do I say? I love you?... could it be? I turn around and see nothing. This was my imagination…. I fall… sticks cracking as my weight hits them. Leaves breaking as my hands hit the ground….. I can’t feel…  I’m numb…. Am I stuck here?...